Mark Haddon, The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time(via ass-phalt)
Sometimes we get sad about things and we don’t like to tell other people that we are sad about them. We like to keep it a secret. Or sometimes, we are sad but we really don’t know why we are sad, so we say we aren’t sad but we really are.
Things are so tough lately. All I do is work, go to school, and job shadow. I barely have time for Chris. I barely even have time for myself. Life is weird. It gets harder everyday. I just need to keep pushing through. Two more weeks and I can finally breathe again.
Today makes it exactly 2 and 1/2 years that we have been dating. It’s weird to think it’s been this long. The sad things is, I have spent these past couple of years worrying, questioning, and feeling insecure. It hasn’t always been that way, but it’s has been that way enough to know that something is off. I don’t know if it’s because things with us started off shitty, or the fact that your ex girlfriend still calls you, or maybe it’s something else I just haven’t figured it out yet. I’m happy, but unhappy at the same time. I should be just happy. I have every reason in the world, but I’m not.
third eye blind was amazing last night and I’m so glad all my friends were there too. The only thing that kind of sucked was not being next to Chris to sing along, but other than that last night was perfect. I love everyone.